July 10 - What if?

July 10
What if we grew up without seeing the stars, without ever seeing the Milky Way spreading across the night sky?
What if we never hear the chorus of frogs making their john cage concert in the marsh?
What if you had never seen a hummingbird hover over a blossom, and considered its tiny vibrating heart?
What if the crimes of this government were unknown to you, and you allowed them to continue uninterrupted?
What if you really were a monster? What if you really were a god?
What if you lost a few scores of pounds and discovered what was underneath?
What if the blossoms began to sing? What if the memories in this cup could run again? What if the stripes were waving fields of grain? What if Fibi was my dog? What if Linda was my lover? What if I wasn’t afraid to talk to people? What if I got a massage? What if I got a job?
What if I really trusted and loved myself utterly?
What if I wrote like this every day?
What if I held my intent, like a votive, not in vain? What if I let laughter rule. What if I followed my song? What if I became a writer? What if I painted pictures with words instead? What if I only played in the studio? What if I were happy? What if I weren’t afraid all the time? What if I let the joy that leaks in when I am in love to take over and infect everything?
What if the world were round? What if we all grew up seeing the Milky Way spreading across the night sky? What if we all grew up feeling the power of the dark sea move beneath us? What if we all felt our father’s hand guiding us? What if we could trust the adults in our lives?
What if everyone got enough attention? What if every child was loved?
What if I just go on asking these questions for hours and days and weeks?
There’s a dream: it will take us to the roof. What if our gods were monsters? What if our monsters were gods? What if our monsters were simply us? What if Jesus didn’t die on the cross. What if people didn’t kill lie and steal in his name for 2000 years?
What if the Matrix was written by a woman? What if the aboriginal people didn’t come in from the wild? What if we didn’t give up? What if we didn’t change?
Where is the place to stand ground? Where is the a place for us? Go find your own tree. Tell, me do you like music?
Can I find Latin quotes and translations o n the net? What should I be writing about? How can I just start taking this seriously? What if I took my writing seriously? What if making words sing was enough? What if I wasn’t heartbroken that painting pictures wasn’t enough? What if I wasn’t heartbroken that love wasn’t enough? What if I wasn’t heartbroken?
What if I knew what to do? What if it were easy? What if I did it with love? What if I gave it my all? What if I wasn’t afraid ALL THE TIME?
What if this was a great exercise? What if I went to the gym enough? What if everything was alright? What if I called my brother? What if I got all my work done? What if I opened all my mail? What if I stopped making people mad at me ? what if I stopped hiding, but still had enough solitude?
What if… what if… what if?
Then what!